Politics Are Not My Friend, and Neither Are You.

I don’t even know where to start with this post, considering I haven’t written since July of 2016. It is now gearing towards the end of January 2017, and to be completely honest, not a whole lot has changed. Actually, things have been quite pretty damn boring. I’m still struggling with the same things as last year. Once again I deleted my Facebook because SURPRISE, Donald Trump is our President. Terrifying, I know. That’s not the reason I deleted it though, but the fact that IGNORANCE is everywhere is what scares me the most. No, let me rephrase that. Ignorance doesn’t scare me, it’s the way people are responding to it. You try to educate them all you want, but they don’t care to listen. They spew “word vomit” (Mean Girls reference, duh), and post shit that they WANT people to argue about, just to start an argument. Then of course they get mad when people who actually know what they’re talking about talk and have strong opinions.

That’s the thing with social media. People use it as an outlet. I’m not saying that’s a bad thing, and I’m totally for it, but the amount of times I roll my eyes from the SAME DAMN POST, is getting old. We try to educate, we try to get through to them, but they don’t care to see it. For example, this woman I went to high school with posted something one day and all she kept saying was “well I keep seeing this everywhere”, or “well I heard…”, but did you, did you really? Did you see or hear this stuff and say, “hmm, I should research this before I post a long Facebook post about it”? NO. You did not. You posted it anyway with a lot of invalid points that you don’t even want to try to back up. And that brings me to my next point. BACK. YOUR. SHIT. UP. Man oh man, that is what IRKS me to my very core. Don’t start something if you can’t defend yourself or prove your point, it makes you look like an idiot.

If we have different political views, fine. You do you, bae. If you post your different political views on social media, also fine, again, you do you. BUT IF YOU POST YOUR POLITICAL VIEWS ON SOCIAL MEDIA AND YOU HAVE NO CLUE-OR DIDN’T EVEN VOTE, THEN DON’T POST ANYTHING. Seriously. REFRAIN. I voted, and I too have opinions. I also stated those opinions in a way that I wasn’t negative towards people and maybe posted a few funny memes because why not? This is the internet.

If you don’t understand something. Don’t talk about it. People won’t think any less of you…okay that might not always be true depending on the person, but ya know. It really doesn’t hurt to educate yourself if you want to have intelligent conversations with people. It might actually come in handy some day! Who would have thought?

Politics Are Not My Friend, and Neither Are You.

Friends with Benefits

I was a little late to the party when I lost my v-card, not saying that’s a bad thing, it’s just a fact. At first, I didn’t understand what the big deal was. I had sex, it was terrible, the end. However, I later met someone who changed my whole perspective, and that’s when I turned into a “slut”. I say this in a way where I don’t feel bad about myself, and a way that I understand that it’s okay, and my number isn’t even that high. As I got older however, I was sort of over the “sleep with random people” phase in my life, (and shaving my legs, amirite)? Every time I’ve ever had sex with someone I’ve always had the “meh” attitude about it…until this past week. I had sex with a friend that I had dated. We “broke up” because he wasn’t “attracted” to me anymore (remember that post?), however, he would still try to sleep with me. So I finally gave it up. It wasn’t great, and I still didn’t shave–LOL, oops, but for some reason, I feel stupid about it. I didn’t want to sleep with him, I wanted to keep my number where it was, and I ruined that. I enjoyed going out with him still and talking and just having a good time. We are great at being friends, and I’m pretty sure I lost that now. I gave in and texted him and told him I got my car back after it broke, and although he was like “awesome!” he was also “well I’m glad”, conversation over.

Honestly, the sex wasn’t great, and it didn’t last long, and I didn’t do anything but lay there (mostly on purpose, duh), and the feelings I thought I had for him before were gone. I guess you could say it was sort of a blessing, and maybe I closed a door that was left open for too long, but I still believe I lost a friend in the process of getting it in. I know shit happens, and everyone kept saying it’s bound to happen sometime, but I’m still unsure.

Knowing me, I’m probably overthinking it because I am literally a ball of anxiety at all times, and I’ve learned to accept that.

Bye.

Friends with Benefits

I Posted This Without a Title So I’ll Just Type This

Sup y’all? I’ve been having major “writers block” or whatever the fuck you call it, so I have like 6 drafts saved, but I’m going to try to make this an actual post! Things have changed in the past….I don’t even know, month? Two months? Sheesh. Whatever. Anyway, I caved and hoped back on the social media wagon. I was only planning on going back on instagram and twitter, but Facebook sucked me right back in-as it always does. I’m not saying I’m going to stay on it forever still, but for now it’s okay.

Something I decided to try though is turning off my notifications. I’ve never left them on for Facebook or instagram, because then it’s pretty much constant (I’m popular, I know), but I turned them off for everything else too. Now whenever someone texts me, I just hear the sound so I know that it’s there-just to be sure I don’t abandon anyone.. Let me just say though, it’s interesting AF. I tried it once before and didn’t like it, it gave me anxiety, but I decided to give it another shot, so we’ll see how it goes this time around. I might have to turn the sound off too.

Tbh tho, I’m not sure when I check my phone more. When I have notifications, or when I don’t. I just use it to have something to do, even when I’ve already checked everything. But this is still new to me. I’m going to try it. I want to be one of those people who doesn’t constantly check their phone, it’s my 2016 goal okay?!?!

Another thing that has changed is my hair. I. CHOPPED. IT. OFF! Crazy, I know. I had to though. It was too long and I literally could not do a single thing with it anymore. Honestly, IT FEELS SO GOOD NOW! It’s amazing. Even though I can’t put it up when I’m lazy (which is like 98% of the time), but I actually have to style it or it’ll look like garbage. So pretty much every day I curl it. The nice thing is though, is that it only takes about 10 minutes instead of the 8 years it took me before. I also have to wash it more often, since it’s shorter, it gets dirtier faster, and although I still use dry shampoo, my hair went from “day 3” to “day 2”.

My friend told me to blog about my “feelings on hairy boys”, but I think I’ll pass on that for now. Maybe next time though.

 

 

 

I Posted This Without a Title So I’ll Just Type This

I Don’t Know ‘Bout You, But I’m Feelin’…26..

Well it’s true, I made it to 26. I drank a lot, and tried to take my ex boyfriend home with me after he bought me a ton of shots. He denied, but it’s all good, definitely for the best. But that’s not all that happened. I made my DD pull over so I could puke, and I lost my favorite scarf, which was only like $8, but it was the best. Things could have been worse though. I ran into one of my managers and had a conversation with her (I don’t even remember what, oops). Needless to say, I got more drunk than I have in a long time. I also was more hungover than ever before. It’s true, after 25, the hangovers get MUCH worse. BUT I survived. I am alive, and all is well…for the most part.

I’m not going to lie, I have a lot of great friends. And a lot of them came out to celebrate with me, which was amazing. Some of my friends couldn’t make it, which I was okay with too, but there was one situation that really made me mad. One of my “best friends” tried to make MY birthday all about her. It’s true. She got pissed because I didn’t ask her to dinner with my family and I, because she made other plans. She also got mad when I told her I wasn’t going to rush dinner to meet up with her. I get it, she wanted to see me on my birthday, but if she REALLY wanted to see me, she wouldn’t have made other plans. Am I right or….? It wasn’t the fact that she couldn’t come out, that part I was okay with, shit happens. But when she got mad at ME for HER having other stuff to do and not including her? No. You can’t act like a baby on my birthday, only I can act like a baby on my birthday, and I didn’t even do that. Moral of the story is this: don’t try to fight with me on my birthday, because I won’t back down and I will win. I also hold grudges so have fun.

I Don’t Know ‘Bout You, But I’m Feelin’…26..

Life Off the Grid

Hello there all. It’s almost 1:30 in the morning and I have a very busy day tomorrow, but I thought I would throw out a quick update about “life without social media”. As I posted last time, I decided to deactivate all of my social media accounts. Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and I must say, so far it is going great! It’s odd, I definitely thought this was going to be a lot harder than it actually is. I’m not going to lie, though, I did deactivate my Twitter and Instagram accounts. I only did it for a quick second, but it wouldn’t let me deactivate them again. It says “you may only disable your account once a week”, but I totally did it over a week ago. Whatever. I deleted the apps from my phone so that’s cool. 

The only one I actually miss however, is Twitter. Twitter was my fucking LIFE!! I lived for that shit. I would post so much on there, and even now, I still think of stuff and I’m like “oh man! I wish I could tweet that”. But I’m trying to stay off of them as much as I can. Although technically I still have both accounts, I’m not actually active on them, so it counts as not having them at all, right? I think so. 

Another amazing thing about this whole situation, is how much longer my phone lasts! And I don’t have to charge it nearly as much, which is obvs great news. Like, I worked at 3:30 today, and it’s like 1:30 now, and my phone is still at 63%, and it wasn’t even charged all the way when I went to work! IMAGINE THAT! But in all seriousness, this excites me, and I like how less dependent I feel on my phone now. 

I’m not totally sure if I’ll be social media free forever, but it’s a nice vacation and definitely something I reccomend to people! Even for just a week, I think it’s totally worth it. 

Ciao!

Life Off the Grid

Social Media

Well, I did it. I did something I have never thought I would do. I went on a “social media detox”. I deleted not only my Facebook, but my Twitter and Instagram too. Crazy, I know. But I have my reasons, they may not be good reasons, but here they are.

I spend wayyyy too much time on not only my phone, but Facebook too. I’m on it when I wake up in the morning, when I’m watching tv, drinking coffee, out with friends, at work. All the fucking TIME! Yes, it is a way to be connected with people, but if somebody is important in my life, they will already know what is happening with me by me telling them. I hate talking on the phone, but why not throw a text message my way, ya know? Or email? But really. Social media just took up too much time. I want to have experiences, not just live through a phone. 

Twitter was probably the hardest to delete for me, and the one I’ll probably get back soon. I love to tweet. I can bitch about whatever I want whenever I want to just random people. It’s fun, but if I’m going to take a break, I need to be serious. 

Instagram is great, and so much fun, but how many pictures of the same thing can I post, ya know? Plus, I was failing with the Instagram themes and it was giving me anxiety. 

I did decide to keep my snapchat and my Pinterest. Pinterest because duh, how else am I going to plan my future wedding?! And snapchat because sometimes I just like sending random pictures of my face to people. It’s kind of my way of being off the grid without people thinking I actually died or something. 

That is it. This post was more humorous than I had originally intended, but what can ya do? It’s not the end of the world, and again, if you care about someone enough, you’ll always be in contact with that person.

Social Media

The Blog Post With No Title

Good morning world! I say that with little enthusiasm because I got 4 hours of sleep and woke up with a pounding headache and awful cramps. It’s fun being a woman, isn’t it? I couldn’t fall asleep last night because I had too much on my mind, and for once, it had nothing to do with myself. Usually, I’ll be up tossing and turning and thinking of so many things in my life that are negative and how I just don’t know what to do. However, last night was a little different. Although I was still up tossing and turning and thinking, I was thinking about a friend and what she’s currently going through. I’m not going to say too much since her business is her business, but yeah. It’s weird. I’m almost 26, and this should be the time where most of my friends are getting married and having babies. However, divorce should not be something we ever want to worry about. I can’t say much about it because my parents have been married for over 30 years, but I can only imagine how tough it would be, especially with little kids. Sure, gossip is entertaining, but being caught in the middle of it isn’t always fun. I already got in trouble once today for opening my mouth just saying my friends name, and another friend telling me “I don’t want her to think we’re talking shit about her”. Granted, I know more about it than most people because I’m the one that goes out with her a couple nights a week to talk about it, but to be honest, I haven’t even said a word to anybody about it, until someone else asked me about it and said “so and so knows too”. I’m not in high school, I don’t look for shit to talk about, but when someone is so careless about the things they say, and who they tell, and the environment we’re in when talking. So many things can go wrong. Again, I’m not going into details about what’s going on, because quite frankly, I don’t need the extra baggage in my life. I want 2016 to be about me, selfish as it sounds, but I also don’t want my friends hurt in the end.

 

This post took me a lot longer than I had planned to write. Usually I’ll just sit down and start typing until I stop, but for some reason, this one was different. Maybe I just didn’t know where I wanted to go, or maybe I felt bad about writing it. I’m also still in shock about all of it and maybe that’s what is making this hard as well and I’m not getting out what  I want to say. Any who, until next time people of the internet

The Blog Post With No Title